coming back again with a trash can

hey there guys.
finally i'm coming back again. but if you wanna know how do i am? i'm broken.
B L A H :P
some troubles troubles me up.. i'm messed up ! i'm sad, i'm jealous.. i can't tell y'all now. but sooner or later it'll figured out by itself.
the point is, i'm totally bad this month.
afraid can't get the next grade (YA ALLAH PLEASE.. THIS MORNING I MUST BE AT ELEVENTH GRADE!! AMEN!)
and i thought i'm loosing some ....... of my soul. oh noo.. i'm crying again ;(
i feel so empty last days. i feel so alone even i'm in the crowd. i feel so un-friend-ed. you-know-what-i-mean guys. i thought i just separated. i never meant to.. but i thought they were.. oh no. THOSE JUST MY THOUGHT. I never know the truth.
GOD PLEASE HELP ME !!

Sorry for the whines and useless screams i did above.
but i .. my whole heart is broken.
broken. in to some little pieces i guess. i'm really SAD.

oh well, some things i will tell ya. yeah, something kinda confession, the truth of me last days..
i'm bored of listening k-pop. i back to the Justin Bieber's and Paramore's :)
second, i'm doing a big project. actually, we, not i. a Wall Magazine that represent per class. i'm having fun with that! i gathered with all friends.. some friends so smart and understand what i want. you're very great guys! i love y'all :)
(okay, at least i can smile fo a while)
but some troubles in it too.. come on. life's never flat right?
but i enjoy that. EXECPT my first whines and whatever you named that. about the broken hearted note bla lala lala.. at the top. that's different case!
third,
uhm, i hate some cute things last days.
i do hate them before, but now is getting harder!
I do really hate a girl who loves to talking with a whining-baby voices, smile cutely, feels so cute with their pink tiny stuffs or whateva they like, listening to their mellow-guy fav playlist, said... 'i love him !' or A or B or other name, being a point of interest at the crowd with her RUBBISH and SHIT they said sweetly.. last thing, screaming with little voice OR be boyish as if she can do but you, the GIRLS, you actually don't have manners ! you're all nothing but SHIT!
would you like to sit at a moment and just shut up ?
or just go home and read your fake love stories..
fourth,
i do not have a favor again at this time to continue writing about my Restless sequel.
i hate fake, anything else that.
SUCKS